Seek Him first and you shall find all the glorious things He has in store for you. Throughout my experience as a Christian, I have sought to seek him first, be attentive to what he is directing, guiding and wanting me to learn through the twist and turns of life. I have become introspective, reflective, analytical, and discerning of what God would have for me in trials, triggers, sufferings, and tribulations. Some of my hardest struggles in life have turned into my most profound and teaching moments because they have taught me what it means to fully surrender my heart, life, and commitment to him. I have learned to turn towards Jesus’s heart and become more and more dependent and in love with him. I know I can’t get through life without trials and tribulations, but knowing I have God to comfort and give me the courage and strength I need is where my help comes from. When I kick and scream, wanting my way, I look and feel just as messy as anyone else who is full of themselves. Left to have it all on my own terms has often shown me to be destructive. I’ve learned to trust him in these difficult moments, knowing he only wants what’s best for me.
Being a partner has taught me endurance and patience as I practice leaning into the unknown and putting my trust in God. Not trusting in my heavenly father brought out the darkness that I didn’t like about myself such as, “I don’t need anyone; I can do all this on my own, I’m strong; you will never hurt me like this again.” But I know, without a doubt, and choose to believe that he sees me and knows my heart. I know that only he can heal and transform me as he is the ultimate healer and comforter.
In Him, because of Him
Francoise